Salam Alikoum sisters. i hope you all had a great eid celebration
i havent logged on for quite a while and when i recieved your post i thought i had better log on and send you all an update. i am not sure if i am that athiest you spoke of? in my last post i did say that i was an athiest but alot has happened since then.
i have finally realised that there IS a creator of us all and how blind i have been over the last few years to the wonders that he has created. i wont say that i have started praying yet or even that i have found a religion but i think i have come a long way in a short time,to believe in god.
i will be truthfull to you and say that i do admire you all for having the commitment to Allah and following the path of Islam but i am struggling which path to follow.
i am English and have been bought up by the traditional english way of church only for weddings and funerals etc so that is the only time i have ever visited a 'place of worship' but after realising that christians think that jesus was the 'son' of god and that the bible isnt just gods word but has things in it which people have added and that it has several different versions then i do find it difficult to follow that path.
on the other hand,at the moment,i look at islam and think it is a very truthful religion but very restricting aswell(from the 'normal' english life) and i am not sure that i will have the commitment and will power to be a good muslim.
my husband(who is a practising muslim)has told me to take my shahada and the rest will come naturally and with time but i dont want to do that if i am not sure which path to follow. i do believe in god and i do believe that mohamed was his messenger but what if i say it and then let myself and Allah down?
i also have pressure from friends and family as they have seen the change in my husband and keep saying to me that they hope i dont become the same.they dont mean this in a bad way but he is alot more serious about life and religion than they are used to.my husband started to pray etc a few months ago but before that he also lived the typical 'english' way,even though he was born in a muslim country.the friends and family see a very different person to the one he used to be.
if anyone could offer any advice then i would be grateful